22...

This blog is as dead as... wats the dead-est place in the world???... i suppose i can start blogging a little bit every now n then... 1-2 posts a week or something... yea, i think i should do tht... then another 1-2 entries in my journal... tht makes up for 4 posts... should write down the highlites of my life rite???... n then let my grandkids see them 50-60 years from now...

I'm 22 2day... i'm happy i guess... i don noe, cos the last few years, my b'day is ard the same time i'm suppose to leave to fly back to Melbourne... on a couple of occasions i flew back on my b'day too... hmmm, tht was kinda sad... but oh well, u do wat u gotta do... this time i was fortunate to be able to stay here a day longer... well, i didnt intentionally do it... the cheaper flight was on Monday... so u noe... yay for me...

Anyways, its kinda bittersweet this time ard... altho i'm not celebrating it in the air, it is ard the same time most of my frens r gone, including myself... this time its worse bcos it marks the beginning of a long period b4 all my frens n myself will be meeting each other again... Eric n Amir r working ppl now in Malaysia... Mel is going back Sydney soon n most likely gonna stay there during the summer to get a job... likewise Natty altho i believe she'll oso come back to KL a short while... so i guess i'll be seeing her... bsides, she's going back Melb soon... i can see her there... she has another 2 semesters... FY is gonna graduate again end of the year n then return to KL for good... so i'll still be seeing him but not for long... Charles, TY, KL... well, i don noe wats going on with them la... my guess is tht Charles n TY r gonna stay there after they grad (come back to KL during the summer for a little while i assume) n KL... well, he's always absent anyways... Rianne... she's completing her final year... normally she would return during her winter break but by the sounds n looks of it, not this time... her nxt return is prolly nxt June... by tht time comes, if i'm not in KL, i'm in Melbourne working... which means i don noe when is the nxt time i'm gonna see her... likewise for many of my frens... i don noe when i'm gonna see them again...

From now until end of nxt year, this period is gonna be a really important one... cos by the end of nxt year, i'm certain tht majority of my frens will have graduated n looking for jobs... by then we'll noe who we will see every now n then n who we wont see for long periods of time until a holiday comes... in my case, if i work in Melbourne, i can only see myself having a break at the end of the year, December... i don noe wat to make of it... i mean, not seeing my frens for long periods of time... i really cant help but think how our frenships would be affect'd... how will the situation be when we do meet up... awkward???... lots to talk???... like nothing changed???...

Turning 22 should be nice but i really just cant help but think of the near future... every1 wants to work overseas n make something good for themselves... i understand tht completely but wat will become of the frenships???... we'd be reduce n restrict'd to FB, Skype, Whatsapp, MSN... the closest to face-to-face contact is prolly Skype... i wonder if after a period of time, say 5-10 years, will any of us eventually return to Malaysia... as it is, i gotta feeling thts gonna be my path... of course, we wouldnt noe until it happens... but wouldnt tht be cool???... it doesnt have to be KL, any city oso can, but of course, KL is the most likely place considering it is still home after all... mayb after 5-10 years, u've got a great cred in yr field n decide to shift back to KL n start a business or u get transfer'd to run the Malaysian HQ or something like tht...

... there's nothing to do except wait to see how things pan out... hopefully its for the best... hopefully we all will be happy... hopefully we wont all be strangers... hopefully we dont fall of the face of the earth... hopefully we can hang in there...

From now on, every 'hi' n 'bye' we say marks the start n the end of another session between our frens n indicates tht we have 1 session less with out frens... lets make every 'hi' n every 'bye' count n mean something...